Looking ahead to a good year

I was shocked to see that almost a full year has passed since I posted on this blog . It has been a busy year, and one that seemed to everyone I talked to, to fly by. I cannot believe it is three weeks into the new year. I hope this year will slow down just a bit. I do not want this one to fly by as fast as last year did.

A lot has changed since last year, and a lot has NOT changed since last year. Our  youngest daughter and her family moved out and now her little brother is moving in. Some things I could not pull off for our daughter before she moved in, we can pull off for him. We removed some ancient disgusting carpet from the living room. Our daughter had removed the same carpet from the room her girls, our three grandaughters used and refinished the floors so they were clean , pretty , and sanitary . However, with them out, we decided to do new carpet in that room, the front living room they, and now he will  use, and the main hall that connects all the rooms in the front of the house as well. Now that carpet is installed, and even though we have to paint what will be his bedroom, he is moving in tomorrow. He  just wants out of the apartment he has been in since he moved out to let them move in after our son in law was in a horrific car accident and needed to recover. He really was not ready to move out and is happy to move back in so he can get his savings where he wants them, get a new car and just get where he wants to before he moves out for good.

So, we have been working on the house. Kitchen major reno ongoing, both baths mini renos .Moving my studio  back into the front bedroom I was in, that I moved out of to give our daughter and son in law a bedroom. My hubby and I have been sharing a much smaller and dark room , as both our studios for the last almost year and a half, so I am thrilled to be back home in my big bright, front bedroom again.HE is thrilled to have that one to himself.  I am still getting set up, and so is he ,but at least I am in this lovely space. Our son only needs one bedroom, so he took the one the girls had been in and he will use the big front living room, we have the smaller family room off the kitchen for our living space, and our master suite is off that family room so it gives us separation , other than during the day if I am in my studio. But evenings he and his friends can take advantage of the dining table I have in here as a work space as I am rarely in here after about five or six at night.

As for personally, I am working on getting healthier. My doc gave me three months to try diet and exercise to lower my blood pressure, blood sugar , and mainly my cholesterol. The other two are okay, not dangerous but they were often on the cusp, but my cholesterol was bad.

So, my wonderful cousin and dear friend, gave me a fitbit and is dieting with me. She is a nurse practitioner so she is staying on top of me from Calif. We talk weekly. She is working on her diet too and she keeps me on track. My husband is on the same diet with me and that helps a lot. He also has a lot of weight to lose. His cholesterol is not as bad as mine, but still needs to come down a bit too.

I started my plan on January 2 , and have had a few bad choices, but overall I have done great, so has my hubby. I started my daily walk today. 30 minutes. I have to do that every day , per docs orders, but just took time to get the food right first. Now, food is good, and I am adding the 30 minutes a day walking in the house. I will eventually get back to a gym, but for now, this will work !!! My fitbit got very excited, lol !!!

So, this year, clearing out inventory in my studio . Keeping the stuff I love, but selling all my old stock, and inventory of old stuff I made ,  along with a good amount of my  materials. I want to do art this year, writing this year ,and the  bead work that I love to do , so it is time for all the rest to go away and put some money back in our accounts !! I have a lovely , creative room, and now I have a lot of work ahead as I clear out and add stuff to my Etsy shop.

clear out old inventory and materials from my studio and make some money doing it

publish a book I have been working on with my husband for ten years

get our front porch all gingerbreaded out with paint and looking like new

get in shape and lose a lot of weight

get my numbers down and keep them down so I do not have to go on any meds

get back to reading again. I have a lovely stack of books I picked up last year, but never seem to find the time to read. I want to change that.

So, I am excited about my goals for the year. We have some fun plans in the work for the year, and some great family stuff coming up, weddings and a baby. So, it looks like a fun year ahead, and a lot of work as well which I am excited to do.

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I have to admit I am a bit bored right now and other ramblings …..

I am dealing with some boredom issues lately and that is not like me. I have tons of books, but just cannot settle down to read. I was working on my etsy store, but with only three sales in a month with 300 views I am a bit reluctant to spend much more on listing if I am not selling anything. I am just not able to figure out why ? I seem to be blocked no matter what I do. Someone will ask for my card, they want to buy something and then I never hear from them. I even tried to show pictures one day and my iphone refused to pull up my etsy account, it is really weird. So, I am a bit lost now that that huge project is on hold. I have so much to list, hundreds of items and had planned on working on that every week, but now, with that packed away for now, I am at a total loss and I am also bored stupid !

It is the first time since I became a mom at 20, that my life is my own.  I am 52 years old. I do not have to work around kids, or grandkids schedules and that is just weird. I think I am just finding my place right now. My husband is at work and I am  home all day without a car, so that makes it a bit hard sometimes, but I am doing okay , why in the heck did my font change, I kept trying to go back and start typing over, but it changed anyway, weird !!

I am just taking it a day at a time, trying to figure out how to lose weight, I am really sick of being huge and just want to get this weight off but it is really not happening. Just finished an eight week stint on low carb with zero results. I had one cheat meal at day ten because my hubby was starting with me the next day. We followed the diet by the book, and neither of us lost a bit over the next almost seven weeks, so we are going to try something else. It is such a hard diet to be on, so we will find something not quite so impossible to do long term.

We have four of our  grandkids coming over this weekend, my husbands exact words when I told him the second two were coming was, are you crazy ? lol. I told him no, they will entertain each other and they are all old enough it will be fine. I am very exicted about it and I think he is too !! Four kids, no more pool, too cold and it will be a very cold weekend, so it will be interesting !! I know McDonaldsa indoor playground will be a key player in the weekend plans !!

Anyway. Just in a rambling kind of mood. I will seee if I can post a picture of the park, not sure I can post chihully on the blog, but I can post pictures of the actual park.

To change the subject, the Chihuly exhibit has been extended at the Dallas arboretum until the end of the year and we are both very excited about that. we are so in love with that exhibit and the arboretum itself, we are going to buy a season pass and enjoy it as many times as we can before it is gone in nine or ten weeks !! We both love to take pictures and was that an amazing exhibit !!

I just cannot get my computer to download the picures, it took ten minutes to get the one of the tree.

Okay, well, I am off to find something to do, not sure what, but I am just in that kind of mood tonight !!!

What to do with me ?

Lately I have really been struggling with what I want to do. I feel a bit overwelmed at times and want to do everything and end up doing nothing.

I thought in my fifties kids would be beh ind me and I would be concentrating on what I want to do and be but I find I am taking care of kids f ull time again and it is making hard for me to know what it is I really want for me. I guess the s itting distracts me from spending time thinking about what I want.  

I am grateful I have the kids to watch, they are here in Texas and not in Calif. I would have wanted them to move here even knowing how much it would mean in changing my life and how much I would have to give up. but I cannot live in limbo until they are on thier own, it could be as much as another year, or as little as six months, I am not sure, but I am sure of the fact I have to figure this out. I would not change things, I would do it all over again, I just wish I had been more prepared.

I enjoy writing but when I am sitting it is impossible becuase four year olds need you every ten minutes it seems, lol ! This makes concentrating on what you are doing, very difficult. Even on my days off, I find myself sitting more times than not for at least a few hours between the  grand kids. I know once both the Daddies are home that will free up a lot more of my time, but that is a few months away and for now, I am the only one can can help our girls.

I do not really mind, but I do know it makes it very hard to figure out what I want to do.

I love to write, I love to make jewelry, I love to take photos, and I used to really enjoy drawing . i Have a ton of art supplies so I know deep inside I want to draw again.  I have my locker hooking, my crocheting and my felt work and my angels, my fimo clay and denim paper,  so many things to do.

I cannot seem to get our room organized and I think that is a big part of my problem. I never really feel like anything is put away and it makes it very hard to be creative. I do not mind creative mess, but it seems I have papers and things that need homes and there is no room.

I have found menopause has made this even more difficult with weeks that leave me so tired and wiped out with no motivation to do anything and that makes me even more frustrated.

So, I have to figure out how to balance things. Get organized for one. Find time for excercise and time to do all the t hings I love to do and enjoy doing them. I spend much too much time in front of this computer doing nothing of value and watching tv. I have started reading again, which is good, and bad, bad because it is another way to escape from doing something creative and productive in my day. Escape reading is something I have done all my life at times.

So, I guess that is what I need to do, figure out how to get organized first and then go from there. I seem to move the same piles around the room and I am really tired of it. Being a lifetime ADD  it seems that papers are my biggest issue. If they do not have a clear place to live I struggle with them. I probably need to throw more of them away !!

anyway, just needed to vent. I am very frustrated with myself lately. I actually have a lot more self confidence then I ever have before, and even though my weight issues are still with me and pretty bad, my self worth is getting better, I am accepting myself for who I am, and not how I look but this disorganization and inable to focus on what I want to do, frustrates the heck out of me !! I want to be the best I can be, and I suppose just do not know where to start !!  I know the weight and clutter are tied too, so I need to make them both a priority or niether one will ever get solved.

Well, I guess I am going to grab that pile of stuff and be ruthless and see if I can take care of the clutter and go from there.  I want to really start being creative in whatever ways I feel like each day, and I think the clutter is  number one in keeping me from that. Tackling it will be hard, but in honesty, it is only a couple of piles of papers and a pile of stuff, certainly I can get a handle on that !! It does not sound like much but when you have a bedroom that is your bedroom, office, jewelry and craft studio and storage area, add a small fridge and a tv , it is a lot in a tiny room.  it is a big c hallenge for sure to do all this stuff in one tiny room !!

Well, that is all I wanted to do, to think out loud and vent a bit. I will post pictures of our clean room when I get done !! Now it is time to focus !!!