I have to say, life is pretty good these days. I am enjoying finding out what it is like for my hubby and I to live alone after 30 plus years living with our kids. I miss everyone, being an hour away, but I am happy learning to be by myself and it is a new experience. We have a lovely, very quiet apartment with a gorgeous view of a creek bed and trees. So wonderful and relaxing. Two bedrooms and two bathrooms, what luxury, and I use both bathrooms, just because I can !!!
I am continuing to work on finding me, I finally have the time to be me, but still have not really figured out who I am yet. After a lifetime of raising kids and helping with grandkids, I am still not exactly sure who I am.
These are the things I know about me so far.
this is seperate from me the Mom, grandma, wife, aunt, sister, and so on, this is just me. I am trying to figure out myself so I am trying to understand myself better. I know I love my family and friends, it is me that is a mystery after all these years !!
I am passionate about photography, it is probably the thing I love most and when I miss a good photo opp, it really bothers me. I have a few shots I never took, that years later, I still am mad about, lol !! I think with my camera most of the time when I am out and about, oh, look, that would be a great picture, that kind of thing and my iphone and pink elph cannon point and shoot are always with me. I need a ten step program. My six year old computer has , no lie, over 14, 000 pictures on it. The box for my new computer says it holds 170,000 pictures, or something like that. I think I will be okay for a while. My cell phone had 1500 until I moved some to the computer and deleted them off the phone, I have had it one year this month. I still have over a thousand on it. No kidding.
I love to create, with beads, paint, stamps, words, a camera, being an artist is who I am and I have to create.
I need to write. I find when I write, I am happier. I love blogging, writing poems, emails and even texts. I am list maker too and I know it is because I love to write.
I love to bake , and being low carb I thought that was gone, but then I discovered coconut flour and almond flour, I can bake safely again. What a thrill !!
I proscrastinate, badly. I can put things off like crazy when I do not want to deal with them, and that is not a good thing.
I love chocolate and I eat chocolate when I am happy, sad, hormonal, bored, mad, you get the picture, I love chocolate !! I do not really eat it as much as I would like to, but found a low carb recipe for that too and there is no stopping me now, it is dark chocolate, but I am fine with that.
I get overwelmed easily, like right now with a studio full of stuff to list on my etsy store, my ADD kicks in and I get frozen and do not know what to do first, a big issue I am working on. I have only been dealing with it my entire life, but it is time to overcome some of those bad habits, I have to push through when I get overwelmed !!
I am content right now. Just happy to be where I am, and who I am , even if I am not sure who that is right now. I like being where I am in life and looking forward to finding new dreams and goals.
I know there is a lot more, but it is late and my brain is tired !!
Here are some pictures I have taken , and when I have taken one, there are usually at least 200 more !! I am usually the officaly event photographer at the grandkids parties, I cannot help it, I love to take pictures !!
not sure why, but I love to take pictures of traffic lights, have better ones from upstate NY but they are on my old computer and I cannot get to them !!
Well, I am pushing it, when I try to add too many pictures to my blog, it starts putting them in the wrong places, so I had best stop while I am ahead !! This was not too show I am a wonderful photographer, I know I am not, I am still learning !! T hey are just to show that I love to take so many kinds of pictures and to share a few favorites of mine . I have hundreds of the grandkids, but I cannot post them without permission. They are not my kids to share and some parents do not like thier kids pictures online so I work hard to respect that !!
So, another great day and looking forward to a really nice day tomorrow !! Thanks for stopping by !! I am happy to share my journey with whoever wants to share it with me !!