I got up today and just decided to enjoy my day and come what may !! I will do some housework, watch some tv and play on the computer and enjoy the beautiful view outside !!
I am working on figuring out the things I love to do to get to the bottom of what I want to be and do for the future, but just for today I am putting that aside and enjoying the day, something I do not always do !
I got up at nine and made breakfast and enjoyed watching Oprah, which made me cry because she found out she had a sister that she did not know she had, her mom had given up a baby for adoption when she was a child, and being adopted, it really hit me hard seeing the emotion. It brought back my emotions when I found my birth family and then lost touch again which was harder than never finding them at all in some ways.
I guess some things in our past just never leave us even from childhood, so I am sure that has defined some of who I am. I think that is why I work so hard to help our kids and enjoy them around me so much, even when I am worn out from it, lol !!
So, for today, I am enjoying the day and talking to a friend on the phone as I type and going to just take in this wonderful life I have and let the future reveal itself over time. I think I have been trying too hard to find myself and it is time to back off and just enjoy the day each day and know I will figure it out when I am ready !!!