Timetobeme's Blog

Finally feeling better. I started this blog to figure out what I want to do with myself and then got sick and have not done much of anything since then !!
I am excited to be where I am in my life now. It is a fun place to be !! I have so many choices I can make and so many things I am interested in doing and for the first time since 1980 I can start to figure out who I am and what I want to do with my days.
My first priority will always be my husband and the kids, that will never change, but it is time for me to dream again and start to explore who I am beyond mom and wife.
I have the most supportive husband and kids so that helps, but for so long I just concentrated on what I had to do that I gave little thought to what I wanted to do.
Oh, I read books, and wrote poetry and made jewelry and did some drawing and ceramics and crocheting over the years, but never really thought much about how many more years I have ahead as me, compared to as Mommy. I will always want to spend time with our kids and grandkids but as I support them in thier choices in life, I need them to support me as I figure out my choices for the future as well.
I have so many things I want to do, and need to take the time to prioritze these things and figure out what exactly would bring me the joy and fullfillment that motherhood and marriaage has brought me, but in a more individual way, rather than the family.
As a wife and Mom you always have the other people in your mind when you make a decision, and they are as important as you are in those decisions. For the first time in my life however, I can make some decsions that although concern everyone in my life as to how I spend my time, they honestly really affect me the most.
Do I want a job, a career ? Do I want to concentrate more on my art ? If I chose one to concentrate more on than the other, what choices do I have that interest me and so on and so on.
It is very exciting and I wanted a place to write about these ideas and choices and maybe get feedback from friends and family as they find my site and have some comments to make.
Anyway, today I am feeling much more myself and on the road to feeling great and I am very happy about that. I am a terrible patient and do not like being deraiiled when I am trying to accomplish something !!