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I was watching a video on one of my favorite youtube channels, Little Poet, here is a link to the video I am watching that inspired this post.

I hope you will check her out, she has no idea I am sharing her video, but please give her a like and a hi from me if you do check out her video, a hi from Stephanie .

I love watching Susan’s videos because she makes me think a lot and just makes videos that older women of all back grounds can relate to. She asks her viewers questions and is honestly interested in what they each have to say.

In this video she talks about retirement, getting older, what retirement means, what having purpose in your life means. A lot of stuff to think about.

Retirement means different things to different people. To people like my husband it means no more daily grind. No more getting up and going to a job that had gotten physically difficult but was never a job he loved, but was good at.

For me, it was not having to make his work lunches anymore, or make sure his work clothes are clean. I have been home since our second of four kids were born and have watched many of our grand kids as well and we are currently doing that right now. He is also taking over the cooking which is a real retirement benefit for me !!!

Susan points out that many people, especially women, because she is a woman and that is what her channel focuses on , have trouble finding a purpose as they age . They have raised their family, they are no longer working a job outside the home, they feel adrift. They cannot seem to find a purpose to get up every single day.

I think many women and men both go through that even before retirement. A job can keep you busy, but does not always fulfill you or become a purpose in your life, it is just a way to pay for your life. If you are lucky you have a job you love, and then it is not work at all, and that probably also means a much later retirement as you feel no need to escape that job.

I am struggling to figure out a purpose going forward. I feel like I am trying to do too much and spinning in circles and not doing anything right. I have a YouTube channel, two blogs here on WordPress and I resell online. I used to love to create and lately, it has been very difficult to create or feel creative. Impostor syndrome is lurking around the corner, that is just how I feel.

I am not depressed. I am happy in my life. I love my husband being home, it is amazing. I am looking forward to mid August when the two grandkids we have been watching for over a year and a half start school and I will no longer be homeschooling the older one, that will be huge. We have a lovely family , our kids and their beautiful families, and we have amazing friends. It is just my personal journey I am stuck on. I used to be so creative and enjoy working in my studio. I need to find that love of creating again and see where it takes me. I want to be excited to start each day with a project in mind for the day. I miss feeling like that !!!

I need to be able to dream again, it has been a long time since I had a true dream / goal in life. I want to find that again !!! Having a dream makes life exciting, I am ready to feel like that again !!!

So, I will go back and finish Susan’s video, and think about how to get myself back on track and have a fun purpose again !!!

She just inspired me to write about it, and I will be writing more about it as I work through this time in my life.

Thanks for stopping by,

Stephanie